I was taking a spin class the other day when the instructor told us all to slow down and find our “zero.” Unwind, take all the pressure off, and just ride. Of course this wasn’t necessarily meant to be symbolic in any way, but to me it was an “aha” moment.
I’m taking this week off before starting my new job on Monday (seriously can’t wait!) and am really trying to use my time off to focus on self care. And not in the “read magazines, do face masks, watch Netflix” kind of way (although that’s great too, trust me!). More so in the “figure out why I’ve been dizzy all the time and schedule a doctor’s appointment for that,” sleep without setting 8 different alarms, and work out nearly every day like I used to kind of way.
I think blogging is funny because most of us come off as 100 percent happy in our posts, when obviously that isn’t the case every day (not an original observation by any means, but something that totally resonates). And while I do consider myself a genuinely happy, upbeat person, I’d be lying if I didn’t admit that these past several months have been insanely stressful in a number of ways. As a result, I developed a number of bad habits physically, felt over-scheduled during the week, and sometimes felt like I didn’t know how to be a supportive friend for someone else. Plus, while blogging was the creative release that I needed, I sometimes got caught up in the comparison game or took things too personally.
However, it’s always easier to recognize these issues after the fact, and now that things are shaping up, I finally am beginning to understand what drives me off the wall as well as what I can do in the moment to make things better.
What got me through the past few months? Chatting with my roommate at the kitchen table in the evenings, getting manicures and champagne with my mom on a random Thursday night, long text conversations and pep talks with a friend, lots of dinners with my parents, cutting out things and people that made me feel negative. Getting back into an exercise routine this week has also been amazing–working out does so much for me physically and mentally, and while getting over to the studio when it’s cold and dark out is less than appealing, it’s so worth it.
I don’t know if there’s really a point to this post other than to show that we’re all normal. Everyone has ups and downs, and I’m thankful I have few days to breathe and take care of myself before starting a new adventure. If you have any tips on how to manage stress, I’m all ears. 🙂